I can’t seem to think of this year as a linear measurement. It doesn’t seem to stretch on, or up. It hasn’t crawled forward or skipped ahead, or moved in any distinct way.
This year has been a hole, and I’ve been digging it.
Every time I look up, I’m surprised by how far I’ve come. The dirt in my mouth and the aches in my arms are not meaningful markers. It’s only the occasional glimpses above that give me any sense of my place.
I don’t mean to say it’s been a bad year.
It hasn’t been a bad year.
I’ve walked into sugared seconds, so preciously self-aware, that they melt into syrup as soon as you recognize them. They stick to you then, covering your fingertips. They stay for days.
I smile whenever I see my hands. They probably look dirty, but believe me– they are bejeweled in crystal and sweetness. They shimmer when I hold them to the light, refracting the memories everywhere.
I see them even when I close my eyes.
If you saw me sitting here, on the last day of October– slowly blinking at the bottom of a dry well– you’d probably think I fell.
But I didn’t. I dug myself here.
If you saw me sitting here, on the last day of October– bruised and dirtied– you’d probably think I’d be wishing for any other type of year.
But you’d be wrong.
This year is a hole– and I’m diggin’ it.
Tomorrow begins year 5 of NanoPoblano– and, like always, our team is going to blog every single day in November. (There’s still time for you to join us.) I figured I’d get my bloggin’ shoes on a day early since I’m a bit rusty. I hope we can count on you to read, support, and share what you can.
Ra @ Rarasaur
Julie @ Bug Bytes
Bill @ Bill Friday
Elsie @ Ramblings of a writer
Jessie @ Behind the Willows
Anita Shree @ Heartsongs blog
Sarina @ Shining Seeds Blog
Lori @ LoriStory Blog
Kasturika @ Musings of an eccentric mind
Lorna @ Gin & Lemonade Blog
Angie @ The Muses Words
Varuna @ Vanilla With Sprinkles
Ghost @ Teleportingweena
Sibelius Russell @ Consolations Many Form Blog
Sarah @ Mother of Serendipity
Juliette Kings @ Vampire Maman
Lindsay @ The Flynnigans Blog
Emily @ Zombie Flamingos Blog
Carolyn R Owens @ Infinity Coaching Leadership Blog
Kitty Litterbox @ Litterbox Riot Blog
Erica @ The Broken Spine Blog
Erica @ The Ink Slinger Blog
Charlene @ The Illusion Of Controlled Chaos Blog
Sahara @ I Didn’t Just Wake Up This Morning With A Craving Blog
Briton @ Punk Rock Papa Blog
Kim @ Drunk On Life Blog
David Ellis @ TooFullToWrite Blog
Tooks @ mrtookles (insta-blog)
Kate @ Will Wally Wonder
Varad @ Loose End of the Red Thread
The Don @ Blended in the Middle Blog
Palak @ Expressions Blog
Victoria @ The Loneliness of the Stay-at-Home-Mother Blog
Namratha @ NamySaysSo Blog
Ka Malana @ Fiestaestrellas!
Edward @ Edward Fagan Blog
Robert @ Fresh Off the Pad Poetry
Lizzie Ward @ Cats and Chocolate Blog
Jesska @ Not Throwing Stones
Quixie @ Quixie’s Mind Palace
Heather @ tUrtlettE Blog
Sarah @ TZBlog
Matt @ The Matticus Kingdom
Cyn @ That Cynking Feeling