notes to self, while on keto


If I’ve had a single pour of whisky, I am drunk.


Pouring oil into coffee is something straight out of a horror movie. Expect stares. Smile. The least I can do is seem like a happy body-snatched-human.


If I’ve so much as sniffed a whisky, I am drunk.


Not all meals should be converted to keto. Some stories are not meant to be translated.


Keto is for my body, not despite it, not in spite of it, not in despise of it.


Carbohydrates are important to so many people, be gentle when explaining why this way works for me.   Be gentle when explaining how much better I sleep, how much more manageable my fears are.

Imagine everyone who asks is Mama, holding a stack of plates in one hand and homemade tortillas in the other. This is how they grieve. This is how they love.  This is how they reach me.

When I talk about why it is not right for me, be as careful as I am when I empty Mama of the things she needs to give.

The plates are sacred.  The tortillas are sacred.

Take what she has offered.  Listen.

Set the table for everyone, but do not forget I have a space here too.

Tell her, if she asks:

I am trying to be drunk on less: the life I have, not the life I want.

I am exercising new muscles, so I can hold everything in stronger hands.

I am trying to live like you.

I am trying to set a table of my own,
where I give everything I have to what I love,
where I am included in what I love,
as sacred as the first meal I ever ate,
as sacred as the first meal I ever made,

as sacred as everything that has ever held nourishment for me,
as sacred as you.

I am trying to set a table of my own
where I empty,
and I pour,
and I give,
and always, always,
leave full.



23 thoughts on “notes to self, while on keto

  1. Yes!!! Stay strong! I was not supported by my family very well while I was on Keto, and I went off of it and gained all of the weight back. I felt better while I was on Keto but my family can’t make a meal without breading things, and so I am going to have to try something else. Keto works – but you have to have a disciplined life.

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    1. Thank you! I had to eat regular food this last month for a health thing. Not looking forward to the intro weeks back into keto, but I’m seriously looking forward to being able to sleep peacefully. 🙏🏾 I hope your health journey is going well. 🙂

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  2. I’m finally back on Keto and I love whole experience, thankfully my husband and son don’t mind it too much as long as there is carbs somewhere on their plates to be found. Keep going Ra and see if there are plates you and Mamasaur can agree on, so she knows she can still share her love with you. I’m so looking forward to read you daily . Thank you for existing

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  3. Whenever I think of the word keto, I imagine Peter Sellers yelling “Keto!” in the old ‘The Pink Panther’ films when he is attacked by his assistant. All joking aside though, any diet like this is going to be very hard to maintain when there is so much temptation lying around and all you want to do is lock yourself away from it. Your diet is not meant to be something that offends others if they are eating food that you cannot touch. This is how you have chosen to live your life, to reap the health benefits and you should not have to feel guilty about following the rules to make it work, especially when you are cutting out many bad things that you could be scoffing instead.

    I know it can be hard for families that have to unify their meals when doing this but as you say, with you being independent, you can be more in control of the food that you want to enter your body and not have to worry about what others think or their attitudes towards it. I hope you continue to get keto to work for you and that people are willing to accommodate your eating habits without making a lot of fuss 🙂

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