I finally held Dave’s death certificate on Monday night.  It shouldn’t have been a shock, but it was. I flinched. I cried. It reminded me of the game my little brother loved: Are you afraid of a monster this big?  He’d ask, arms outstretched, as wide as he could reach. No, I’d claim. Are you afraid of a monster thiiiiis big?  He’d ask, hands and … Continue reading go ahead, clap your hands.